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Caleb is a man with a singular interest in revenge Kidnapped as a young boy and sold into slavery by a power hungry mobster he has thought of nothing but vengeance For twelve years he has immersed himself in the world of pleasure slaves searching for the one man he holds ultimately responsible Finally the architect of his suffering has emerged with a new identity but not a new nature C Warning this review is not censoredThere are some people who view the line between consent and non consent between sex and rape as blurry There are some people who would gladly place blame for rape on that drunk girl in the short skirt who was asking for it There are some people who would view flirting and dancing suggestively as an invitation that should be followed through no matter what it's not the other person's fault for holding the suggestive dancer down and raping them afterall it's not really rape if they were flirting first There are some people who think rape is erotic And there are some people who think serial killers are sexyI am not one of those peopleI'm sure people will start to make assumptions about the kind of person I am as soon as they see my negative rating I'm sure I can't do anything to change most people's minds But I am going to tell you a few things about me For one I am not a prude I like reading books about sex Sometimes I like reading books about kinky sex I don't mind reading books that push the boundaries with kinky sex into just plain old weird sex People have their odd kinks and who am I to judge You want to go home tie each other up and urinate on one another You have my full blessing But there is a line And that line is drawn for me at consent It isn't a blurry line it's a straight permanent marker type line No non consensual sex No sex with those who are not in a position to give consent which in case you were wondering includes the mentally unstable children and animalsThis book isn't a love storyThis book is about a rape victim and a rapistThis book is not sexyThis book is not BDSMThis book is not okayThis book is abuseThis book makes Fifty Shades of Grey look like My Little PonyThis book makes Story of O look romanticThis book is rape The actions in it are inexcusable It makes me sickNow people do bad things No argument there And I don't mind when authors show that Even when they show it graphically sometimes I think you need to be graphic about it to emphasise the seriousness of the bad that people do And Stockholm Syndrome is a serious thing that many people have suffered from I'm not disputing any of this The issue I take is with the portrayal of this bad as maybe not being so bad as maybe even being erotic and sexy My problem is not with the idea that abuse begets abuse as this story tells us My problem is when said abuse is used as wank material Because Olivia is a victim of rape and severe abuse There are no blurred lines of consent here She is kidnapped raped beaten humiliated and dehumanised and we are supposed to find it sexy When even Reage's nameless O participates of her own free willI'm sure there will be readers ready to point out the sexual responsiveness of Olivia in this book Well to that I only wish I still had the link to an article I once read about rape Rape is for me possibly the vilest thing a person can do to another Because it takes something that on a physical level can be good sex and uses it as a weapon by turning it into something completely monstrous This article I read talked about the embarrassment some rape victims face because their bodies respond to the stimuli that they are biologically programmed to Some can even experience orgasm from rape This doesn't make it any less serious or any consensual It does not make me feel better in this book when Olivia's body responds to the sexual abuse I felt like I was watching a dancing bear being tortured into a humiliating performance It doesn't dance because it wants toCaleb is supposed to gain our pity because of his abusive past And maybe I could have pitied him on some level maybe I would have found it in my heart to see him like I see Heathcliff the abused abuser Maybe I could offer understanding if not forgiveness But I cannot offer acknowledgement of his supposed sexiness A man who does this is not hot he beats her with a belt he washes her and hits her when she won't open her legs so he can clean her genitals he thoroughly enjoys beating her into submission and humiliating her he gets aroused by her fear and distressThere is also a disturbing link being made here between gender and roles of dominance and submission This doesn't exist in BDSM BDSM relationships can be MF FM MM FF and anything in between Captive in the Dark suggests that the dominance and submission between Olivia and Caleb is natural because she's a woman and he's a man He was a man and I I was nothing but a girl not even a woman I was meant to fall at his feet and worship at the alter of his masculinity grateful that he'd deigned to acknowledge meMale and female masculine and feminine hard and soft predator and preyIt made me nauseous I'm sure someone will be willing to tell me I didn't get it That I'm too narrow minded to appreciate the complexity of what's going on here Well yes fine If you think it makes me narrow minded to find the kidnapping beating and raping of a girl unacceptable and not remotely erotic then yes I am narrow minded I'll drink to thatBlog | Leafmarks | Facebook | Twitter | Instagram | Tumblr

MOBI Captive in the Dark

Captive in the DarkAptive in PDFEPUB or If Caleb is to get close enough to strike he must become the very thing he abhors and kidnap a beautiful girl to train her to be all that he once wasEighteen year old Olivia Ruiz has just woken up in a strange place Blindfolded and bound there is only a calm male voice to welcome her His name is Caleb though he demands to be called Master Olivia is young beautiful 5 MINDFUCKING STARS WOW A dark and powerful read UTTERLY CAPTIVATING UTTERLY DISTURBING “I wrapped my arms around him and held on as hard as I could He was my tormentor and my solace the creator of the dark and the light within I didn’t care that he would undoubtedly hurt me at any moment right now; I just needed somebody to hold me To tell me these exact words Its going to be okay It wasn’t of course I knew that But I didn’t care I needed the lie” This book blew my mind I’m seriously disturbed at how much I loved it And yet I think it might end up being one of my favs now Every scene in it led to uestions made me doubt my feelings even In scenarios where right and wrong seemed so incredibly and unuestionably clear cut it it just threw all my preconceived notions right out the window and just forcibly opened my mind to and perspectives and uestionsThe writing style is seriously phenomenal and mezmerizing I felt like I just want to highlight the whole book It was captivating rich vivid descriptive It put me right into the character’s heads The story flowed beautifully the dialogue was effortless and the plot was beyond gripping CJ Roberts is definitely one of my new favorite authorsThe book centers around Livie’s kidnapping by Caleb As part of a complex revenge scheme twelve years in the making he abducts her with the intent of training her as a pleasure slave and selling her into slavery to the man he is trying to take downWhen Livie wakes from a drug enduced sleep to find herself captive her worse nightmare is coming true Tied to a bed with a strange man who calls her ‘pet’ and demands she call him ‘Master’ Livie is thown into a dark twisted world subject to deeply erotic deeply horrific and disturbing violations against her will But strangest of all are the feelings she begins to have for her captor Is there a good heart behind the monster As the lines between captive and captor are blurred it leaves you uestioning everything you feel “Your entire life is going to change You should try to accept that because there is no possible way to avoid it Like it or not fight it or don’t your old life is over It was over long before you woke up here” CalebI don’t view this as a BDSM book This isn’t BDSM as we usually see it in books this is real life BDSM Its not a game its not a lifestyle not a choice this is LIVING in it Its raw gritty reality There is no safe word no consent no out The main purpose isn’t getting off the purpose is training End of story “What’s going to happen to me” I asked uietly almost hoping he hadn’t heard I wasn’t sure I wanted an answerThere was no answer – then “Whatever I wish” Its just such an alarming blend of gentle and tender to harsh brutal and controlling and yet I was RIVITED TO THE PAGEThe author is seriously ballsy – she goes ALLLLL out in this There is NO freaking stone left unturned Yup read into that ALL you want OOThere were parts of the book where I was just in shock at what was happening The purest HOLY SHIT moments you can imagineThe whole initial concept of how easily someone can just disappear is deeply chilling And the story starts off from Caleb’s POV Watching him watch her contemplate taking her Wow So creepy and yet captivating “As a slave trainer he had trained at least a score of girls Some were willing Others Coerced But this particular slave the one he eyed from across the busy street – she was different She was neither willing nor coerced not sent to him She was pure conuest” Caleb deep breath what a complex character I was utterly intrigued by him There’s a constant counterbalance between his inner thoughts and feelings that are purely him and his outer actions which are clearly the result of his rigorous brutal and intense training and conditioning His journey in this book is so interesting because even though he is ‘technically’ the villain of this story he’s also the victim of his own utterly horrific story I think he had a lot of humanity but most of it though had been raped or beaten away and his journey is him struggling whether or not he can andor wants to find it again We watch him struggle with what he wanted to do versus what he felt compelled to do And its a complete mindfuck because yes he is brutal but not in the way some crazy mindless rapist would be So I just found myself uestioning things over and over and over againDid I like him cuz he was the best in this fucked up world or did I like him because of him Is he the villain Or is he too a victim of his own story Should you love him Should you hate him I thought I might be able to love him for a while then I was really fucking sure I hated his guts But not hate in the sense that I want him to die I just want him to be less brutal and then I could love him And then a few pages later I sympathized with him again and started to like him again A lot Maybe Gosh that sounds fucked up even to me lol UrrrrghOne minute he was gentle the next he was a monster – almost as if the inner him deeeeep down may have been gentle but he is just so strongly conditioned to be a monster that it becomes dominant I kept alternating between almost thinking I was starting to fall for him then he would do something that just totally fucked with my mind and just like Livie I just had NO clue what to feel “Why couldn’t he just keep being an evil soulless bastard so I knew what his role was and I knew mine Why did he continually have to switch back from cold and unforgiving to comforting and warm” I mean I know he’s the product of seriously mindfucking so does that excuse his behavior Prolly not but it makes me sympathetic to him I think Or not GAH Moving on you’ll have to read it for yourself to see what you think about itLivie I loved her character I totally felt for her I loved her spunk and her fight She never gave up not really And her inner strength despite her nightmare ish scenario made me totally sympathetic to her She was never stupid never made me want to throw my Kindle at the wall Her thoughts and actions were totally understandable and relatable “He had tied me – naked – to a bedpost To suffer And he was somewhere in the house fucking some whore’s brains out He wasn’t thinking of me Of the pain I was in because of him He simply did Not Care Hot tears streamed down my face“ I’m alternated between finding what I was reading hot utterly gross utterly disturbing and then disturbingly cute When Caleb would do something cute or tender I felt myself melt a little And that just made me want to slap myself and just go ‘Gah what’s wrong with me He’s a kidnapper He did unspeakable things to her But He’s really cute Wrong wrong wrong Aaaaaaaaa’ he stood me up and pressed my head to his chest rocking me back and forth gently I gripped him tightly both arms holding fast to his waist It had become natural for me to seek shelter in his arms even if he had just used then to hold me down and spank meIt wasn’t enough to fuck my body he wanted to mindfuck me too It was working Both Livie and Caleb were inexplicably and wrongly in both cases drawn to each other and yet their feelings were also utterly undeniable What was there was just SO FREAKING WRONG

C.J. Roberts ¸ Captive in the Dark EPUB

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Roberts – Caleb is a man with a singular interest in revenge Kidnapped as a young boy and sold into slavery by a power hungry mobster he has thought of nothing butNaïve and willful to a fault She has a dark sensuality that cannot be hidden or denied though she tries to accomplish both Although she is frightened by the strong sadistic and arrogant man who holds her prisoner what keeps Olivia awake in the dark is her unwelcome attraction to himWARNING This book contains very disturbing situations dubious consent strong language and graphic violen Warning Unpopular opinion timeIn the spirit of full disclosure I must admit that I didn't exactly finish this abomination book I made it halfway through before my numerous rage blackouts signaled that it was time to DNF However because I'm a curious idiot I paged through to the end to see if the book ended as abysmally as I expected it would It did If I had finished Captive in the Dark this review would probably contain 100% swears So in all honesty I did this crapfest a favorBecause this book makes me think in sentence fragments I'll make a list of reasons that readers like me may want to skip over this book and read something ANYTHING instead 1 Rape and sexual assault2 Physical assault3 Kidnapping4 Belt beatings that leave welts FOR DAYS5 Chaining a woman up IN THE DARK in a manner that we wouldn't treat animals6 A deep misunderstanding of proper punctuation7 Trite overwrought descriptions and dialogue8 SLAVERY9 The most inexplicable case of Stockholm's ever10 Sexism11 SEX TRAFFICKING12 Poor characterization and story development13 Victim who still attends high school 18 years old but I still got some pedo vibesI'll leave the list at 13 Hell relics deserve unlucky numbers A Brief SummaryFucking evil fucking douchebag Caleb kidnaps high school student Livvie and locks her up so he can mentally break her torture her rape her and eventually SELL HER AS A SEX SLAVE to some undeveloped shadowy villain Caleb's the romantic hero ladies and gentleman Fuck this guy In the process Livvie falls for her captor because he's TOTES HAWT and forces multiple orgasms on her Livvie is not Caleb's first victim He's done this to plenty of women Oh and the charmer's also a murderer And why has he unleashed this reign of terror on the human populace Seriously brace yourself The reason won't give you any comfortCaleb wants to have revenge on ONE FUCKING GUY I mean even if he was taking on a whole country there still wouldn't be an excuse for his actions But ONE GUY How lame can one man's motivations be He didn't have a fair go at it as a kid and my heart breaks for that child However as an adult he has a personal responsibility to be better than that Caleb fails and becomes a fucking monster He belongs in prison or in an eternal headlock from Liam Neeson I'd insert a kickass picture of Liam Neeson here but CitD doesn't deserve awesome images in its reviewsI don't know what to write about Livvie's character Caleb dehumanizes her to such an extreme extent that she loses all perspective on right and wrong She ends up falling for him which made very little sense to me with the short timeline Livvie's narration is coherent and rational for the most post She doesn't read as insane but her actions suggest that she is At one point she mentions that she might be developing Stockholm Syndrome but do people suffering from SS KNOW they're suffering from it Livvie describes Caleb as the physical ideal for a man She doesn't want to be attracted to him but can't help it because he's pretty That's the problem with so many of these self pubbed innocent young thing falls in love with gorgeous dickbag stories IF CALEB LOOKED LIKE THE MONSTER HE IS ON THE INSIDE NO ONE WOULD WANT TO FUCK HIM NO ONE WOULD FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM NO ONE WOULD MAKE EXCUSES FOR HIS FUCKING INHUMANITY Why did I have to type that in all caps you wonder BECAUSE IT FUCKING PISSES ME OFF Now it pains me that I have to type this but WORDS SEND MESSAGES This is not just a story It's a reflection of our times a reflection of our pre occupation with romanticizing the stories of victims so we won't have to think about the reality The reality is scary as shit I get it No one wants to end up a sex slave like Livvie So it seems the only way we can deal with that fear is by making the situation not SO bad Sure Caleb commits unspeakable crimes but he's a HAWT anti hero What he does to Livvie isn't right but he had a rough childhood Love will REDEEM him A virginal little flower like Livvie will make him a better man That's all these rapists and sex traffickers need you see The love of an abused dehumanized woman Forget personal responsibility Forget the sacrifices of Livvie's freedom and personal agency Let's instead be aroused by Caleb beating Livvie to break her will and anally raping herThis is not just fiction Sure the story is totally made up Caleb and Livvie are not real people This comes entirely from the imagination of CJ Roberts However even the most fantastical fiction reflects snippets of our culture of our worldviews That's why the written word is so powerful Indeed that's why people have tried to cut off access to books in the past By no means do I think that Captive in the Dark should be censored I think it's irresponsible as all hell but anyone should be and is permitted to read and make up their own minds I refuse to let this story slide just because it's supposed to be dark and taboo Our culture has enough issues with sex crimes already Sex slavery and trafficking is too real for me to think this book is erotic in the slightest Google the statistics It's a huge problem in the US and abroad and it's tragically under reported Women men and children are brainwashed and abused like Livvie every day They are made to believe that their captors are the only people they can trust They're so afraid of their abusers that they won't speak to the police REAL PEOPLE Does Captive in the Dark do anything to fight this culture Not really It's pages full of wankery about poor 'ol Caleb and his feelz and overly sexualized descriptions of Livvie experiencing mind blowing oh so wrong but it feels so right orgasms The knowledge of these very real victims in the back of my mind made it impossible for me to even appreciate this book on an artistic level My Goodreads friend Willowfaerie directed me to the story of Coleen Stan whose 7 year captivity as a sex slave included many of the inhumanities suffered by Livvie In the real world after a grueling court trial the bad guy went to prison for the rest of his life Something tells me the same won't happen to Caleb IDK maybe he'll die in the next book I'll never know because I won't be reading it The abrupt ending of this book indicated that Livvie wants to stay with Caleb and is willing to put herself in mortal danger for his stupid revenge mission so I doubt the second book will spin the story on its head and consist entirely of a court trial featuring Caleb's past victims helping to send his sadistic ass to jail for the rest of his life To add insult to injury this isn't even well written I know a lot of people say it is and when compared to some other self pubs I suppose it comes across better than others I'm a picky bitch though and the trite purple prose is eyeroll inducing At one point Caleb enjoys the most dramatic beer ever while filling pages with info dumps of his tragic past I chronicled that in my status updates The purple prose is likely this book's worst enemy The flowery descriptions of the sexual assault and Caleb's appearance and demeanor perhaps unintentionally romanticized the story In addition to the clichéd darkness of the writing style a lot of the basics are off Punctuation is misused words are misspelled you're instead of your it seems they'll never learn and there's plenty of tel